bad day
27.4.06
Where is the moment we needed the most, you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost. They tell me your blue skies fade to grey, they tell me your passion's gone away. And I don't need no carryin' on, you stand in the line just to hit a new low. You're faking a smile with the coffee you go, you tell me your life's been way off line. You're falling to pieces everytime, and I don't need no carryin' on.
Sometimes the system goes on the brink, and the whole thing turns out wrong. You might not make it back and you know, that you could be well oh that strong and I'm not wrong. So where is the passion when you need it the most, oh you and I, you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.
'cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around. You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie, you work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day, you've seen what you like and how does it feel for one more time...
**happy birthday ma!!!
**hmm, wla aqng mapost ngaun e.. kya ni-repost q na lng yang 'bad day' na nsa first blog q... hmm, i guess that's what i'm feeling right now...tnX!
6:14 PM
hmm..
25.4.06
i guess gs2 nio nmn ng iba, instead of my everyday-whatevers.. so cguro ikkwen2 q na lng ung previous integrated project ng buong sophomores [that's us] last school year.. this happens nun 4th qtr na.. great idea dba para hndi nmn mtapos ung skul year w/ just simple goodbyes.. at least unity-memories..hehehe.. i'll treasure this memories, promise!.. d2 q lng nkita ung unity ng buong rinaldi [2nd year - my section... ahem, best section]..
[sTagE pLaY]
so, ung project na un is a STAGE PLAY.. ung project na un, sakop na ung halos lahat ng subjects... like for the values, that's Values Education, for the dance/choreography that's S.K.F., for props that's Mechanical Technology and so on and so forth..
bale, pinabunot kme ng country.. ang nkuha nmen is india..ac2ally, i am the assnt. director at first, pro hndi q rin nmn gs2, kya ung scriptwriter nmen w/c is david [our class pres.], ang pumalit sken, kac den,, hndi pwede ksama sa castings ang isang production staff.. e gs2 qng maging dancer... so aun...
we worked so hard for this, every saturday, we meet at the classroom to work for props, and the delivery of messages.. dancer aq pro aq ung nagdrawing nung dancing shiva [the goddess of dances - india] props nmen... hehehe, ngaun lng nila nlaman na mgling den aqng magdrawing...ahemm!!.. kya ngulat den cla.. hndi q ren plinano [plano] na aq ung magddrawing, bsta ung head ng props nmen, tnnong aq kung pno ba idrawing e2ng c dancing shiva... hehehe. yeah!
the big-day is fast approaching, and we already have our costumes from the mananahi.. guess what the costumes for the dancers alone costs P800+ [i forgot..] hndi na magttaka kac ung costumes ng mga dancers is 3, kac 3 production numbers nun..ung
{1}temple dance, {2}market dance, {3}then ung nightmare and relics dance..<-[isa lng yang prod. pro hati sa dlawa]..
we did it!, i mean we performed well.. i guess they loved it.. then after the presentations, later that afternoon is the awardings ..hmm,, okay...well we're bit disappointed about the results, we only got the 'best preview award' w/c is isang tao lng ung nagpakahirap, kac cya lng ung mgaling sa mga gnun...huh! uu un lng ang nkuha nmen.. *sigh*.. ang mrming nkkuhang awards are the japan and vietnam.. hmm.. i feel sad about our 2 choreographers,, kac lhat nag-eexpect na khit hndi tau mnalo ng best actors.. etc. is mkuha ntin ung best choreography, like prng mind-set na xure win na un,,even the other sections says that we will get that award..like, "tama na practice!, kau na panalo jan",, hmm pro hndi ren..
ok lng yan...what's important to me is nkapag-perform kme ng maayos sa stage w/o
mistakes... so aun.. it was a great-great experience, for me sna magkaroon ulit n2 nxt yir and nxt-nxt yir.. hay! kac tlgng d2 q nkita ung lhat ng things na hndi q nkkta s classm8s q, like the unity and cooperation,, hndi q yan nkta sa buong classroom, i guess.. kac kme ung blacksheep ng sophomores..[*sigh* blacksheep den ung section q dti e..] yes!, like maiingay, bwiset na bwiset na ung mga teachers smen..hmm.. pro this is the best section ever!!!
4:32 PM
ow shit! boring na, hot pa..
24.4.06
*khapon po ito*
hmm, i woke up earlier than i expected [usually mga 9:30am], pro it's 8:30 pa lng, how do i know? i didn't even look at the clock..hmm, kac nrrinig q ung tv sa room ng sisters q, yes rinig. and nagstart pa lng ung show n pumalit sa madeline,, hehehe, so that's 8:30..
**i stopped kac, i forgot skitz - our dog nsa bathroom pa, doing [err..] like pooping!!.. so pinulot q muna ung mga poop..not barehands cyempre, duhh,, that's not gonna happen... hold your breath,, huh! done... back here!!
ow, it's so early..nndyan pa nga ate jha q e,.. w/c is also on her way na ren to her summer class... so umalis na den cya..,,ac2ally kgabe, nanood pa q ng mga dvds [remember??]
so, pro hndi q na tinapos kac pagod na pagod na q dhil nga umalis kme khapon.. so my eyes are starting to shut and i'm yawning na ren.. so cguro 30 mins. pa lng ung movie pro, wla di q na kya!!.. [i watched dvd after the pbb teen edition, ung pinakilala na ung 12-teen new housemates, pro still b4 i watch dvds, e, nnood muna aq nun sa 24/7-pbb, ac2ally we don't subscribe, pro 'meron na wla' nung una i was excited kac, maayos.. pro when it's starting the live streaming, maya-maya gumulo na nmn like it used to..*sigh* kla q wla ng subscirbe-subscribe..hmm..(about s 'meron na wala', it's ac2ally, rinig-na-rinig mo ung usapan, pro maugong ung itchura..pro minsan, kita mo ung maayos na form..pro maugong pa ren..aun)]
when i came out from my room, nkita q ung mm q nagmamadali..hmm, enrollment na pla s DonBoscoTechnicalCollege <-- [school q] ngaun [uu nga pla].. hmm, ang aga nga e, usually may-june pa dba.. hay, ewan, gnun tlga s DBTC..
**this is one **i* hour, grabe!! bglng dumating ung kuya q, unexpected [kac usually dumadating cya d2 sa haus mga 8pm na kac nga sa work nya] aun,, aba binantayan ung room nya [where nnd2 e2ng comp]ac2ally e2ng PC is sming dalawa ung isa png PC sa dlwang q nmn sisters, pro mron din aq dun accnt] aun, tlgang hndi cya umalis d2 a room nya... well this happen ngaun lng [ngaung nag-popost aq].. knna 4:31pm lng, ngaun 5:54pm na.. grabe, kya gnwa q na lng nag-emu aq..shiish..
back here!!
so nnood pa aq ulit ng dvds ac2ally ung hndi q natapos kgabe ung pinanood q..
nun dumating na ung mom q gling sa skul kac sa enrollment.. shiish,, 3-versiglia section q for this skul year... *sigh*, i'm expecting 3-zatti e,, hmm..
then late that evening, i watched dvds as usual, pinanood q 'rumor has it', gnda nung movie.. ntpos ung movie 12:17am [bale tuesday na]... so aun..
**medjo magulo ung post q noh?? kac cnama q ung mga nangyyare sa pligid q habang nagpopost... so aun.. tnx!! ung mga nagyyare sa pligid q is ung nsa [ung may dlawang **] don't worry hndi q na issama ung mga nagyyare while i'm doing some posts.. [it wasn't a great idea, hehehe].. tnx!!
4:47 PM
sa sm manila
23.4.06
umm.. nn-naginip pa q nang bglang may ngsalita, mom q pla. "jeff, gicng na, ngaun umaga na lng tau aalis" [we planned 12 noon] kc ssama daw c ate jha. pro hndi uuwi ng gabing-gabi kac mag-aaral p cya for 2m. so aun, nag prepare na q. ngdala aq ng pera kac plano q bbli aq ng body bag and a polo shirt at penshoppe.
b4 we went exactly at sm, [SM manila BTW] we went to quiapo first to attend mass. then off to sm manila. we're going to watch cinema!! weee.. hehehe.
*d lucky ones*
the movie is cool and funny. msayang pnoorin, eventhough pcira c sandara [not actually]. pro the fact is ang gling nla pokwang and eugene..nver miss that muvi!! hehehe..it's just like exactly ung 'tanging ina muvi".. sbhin nio ng ang babaw q. maybe b'cause ngaun n lng uli aq nkapuntang cinema house.. [may epekto pla un, hmm..jowk lng!] *see sunday morning post q
- yan ung last tyme nming pmnta s cinema house, hahaha!.
*nkita ku ang nkita ku*
u heard it ryt! 2 pnnood nmen,, hmm... cguro alam nio kung anung muvi yan... "pamahiin"..hahaha. at first cyempre hndi mo mxdo maintindhn ung movie, b'cause of the twist sa may last part ng movie.. mgnda ung movie, pro nkkkuha ng pncin ung effects, kung nrinig/npanood nio na sa tv ung mga comments ng mga nkanood na ng muvi nung premiere night, ung effects daw pang hollywood??, it wasn't, para sken, png so cartoon, ung nabagsakan c [nkalimutan q na] ng tic-toc clock ung mataas, i dunno tawag dun.. prng cartoon, promise!.. pro the fact is ang gling umarte ni iya villania, promise!. don't miss that muvi!
after the show, we plan to buy some dvd [yes, pirated. wahahha][pirated? so what!] s quiapo...
*2 'lil s2pid*
hmm, after buying dvd's, now it's tyme to go home [awwww!!!] sa jeep, sa tpat nmen, may 2 'lil girls with their mom... hmmm. on our way home, i notice the 2 girls [not at the same age, pro they're sisters].. the older one carried her 'lil sister on her lap, pra mka-upo ung ibang psahero.. then minutes have passed, i notice once again the 2 girls, the older one, is murmuring on her 'lil sisters ear, and they suddenly looked at me, then start 'LAUGHING' [not actually loud] but i can see they're trying to pissed me off, after that. i get conscious about myself, *about my hair, the wax had started welling off since we've got to attend the mass at quiapo, but i did'nt mind it* is it?, or my face?... ha! i don't care!.. then i try to put my vision away from them, then i notice once again, they'd stopped.. hmmm, what the matter??.. when they saw me looking at them, they start murmuring again then they laugh again.. what's the matter w/ u 2 'lil *r**k* **t*h**!!.. [i didn't say it to them, don't worry, why would i shout at them??]... malapit na kme s bbbaan nmen, bmba kme to buy some food, wla kcng pagkain s bahay... hay slamat!!.. [it's not a big deal after all, gs2 q lng i-share i2]..
*more*
dun sa bnibilhan nmen, may group of barks [barkadas], while waiting for our mom to ordering, i notice they're laughing too,,,[WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH THE PEOPLE!! IS IT A "LAUGH-AT-JEFF-AT-6-PM day??] actually, i guess they're not laughing at me... hmmm..
so aun... have u noticed na hndi q minensyon [mention] ung mga bnili q [w/c i planned] remember?? the body-bag?? the polo shirt??.. well i we have no tyme buying even one of them after-all, kac nga mag-aaral pa ung ate jha q,, maybe next tyme.. that's all for my out-of-house happenings...Ü
npncin nio rin bang ang aga q nag-post, kc ngaun na uuwi ung kuya q, maybe hours later, nnd2 na un.. kya inagahan q na bago mag 'bukas' <--[tomorrow], bka mkalimutan q p ung mga nga nngyare [??]...
that's it!! advance gudnyt sa iñu!! tnx for reading ang tnx in advance n rin kung magsa-sign kau sa guestbook q [pls, pls!!] or tag [pls!]
7:40 PM
xo hot!!
22.4.06
hmm, gwabe na init!!.. xobra!. umm, and aga2 pa pro my dad and mom, and my sister is already asleep.. nyek! 9 pm pa lng,, well cguro dhil n den s pagod kc mom q medyo minake-over ang room ng kuya q w/c is nsa iloilo [ata] hnggng ngaun pro uuwi n 2morrow eve. dad q, office works xempre. sister q, gling s summer class. and my eldest sister, pmntang subic, knna lng umalis...
hmm, sa xobrang init, d2 sa kama ng kuya q n2log ung mom and dad q kc presko, kung saan nnd2 ung PC, kya mdjo hndi aq mka soundtrippin', hwaaa!. umm, presko nga nmn. mhirap na den mag aircon these days lalo na gastos..
hmm, guess huwat!, ngaun oras ding e2, sinuway aq ng mom q kc ncclaw ata cla, kac hndi cla sanay m2log pag bukas un ilaw, hmm, lhat nmn ata tau, e?!..heheh, naku nmn, hndi lng kac nila alam n mnsan e hnggang alas-12 ng htingg-gabi e gmit q 2m PC, kung wla yung kuya q... haiz!..
nku nmn!, bad saturday-eve ata ang naamuy q! i guess bbwi na lng aq bukas unless gabing-gabi n umuwi kuya q.. *sigh*.. bket kac d2 p keio n2log.. :P, jowk!
hmm, i guess may connection nmn ung title q sa mga cnulat q, eventhough ngmamadli na qng mag-type, kac bka mgcing na nmn cla pra suwayin naq at ptulugin n..lalo n ang ingay p nmn n2ng keyboard..hmm,, hndi n ata aq snay m2log ng gni2ng oras, dhil na den s everyday routine.. cge tnx for reading this... i guess mnonood na lng uleht aq ng mga dvds s room q.. hirap nang wlng PC s sriling room!! grrr. cge! nyt!!!
8:19 PM
freaky daw o??
19.4.06
hehehe,, freeeaaaaky.. pmunta aq s youtube.com to watch the fox's 'the o.c.' ya know that? ryan? marissa?.. nevermind.. then after i watch some series. i ended up searching for final destination 3.. wla lng, kc malay mo mrong full vid nun d2,, and hndi q p nmn nppnood un..one time dpat mppnood q n un w/ friends s house nya,, e wla lng.. bbli din sna aq ng dvd nun.. e aun... inisip q den kung ppnoorin q un.. edi wla ng thrill kung nkbli n ng dvd nun.. aun,, nkkta q ung mga gruesome and brutal n pgkkmatay nun mga characters, kdiri ung nailgun scene, waaaa.. it's fun 2 watch,, iba tlga feeling, nkatutok k s comp, then watching people die brutally s monitor in a dark room pa.. waaa... cool! waaa, goosebumps..
nothing to watch s tv, as usual. tmang-tma umalis ung kuya q, although he planned not to come for work today, pmnta nmn xa s mall. as usual nag comp n nmn aq. well, i've been here since afternoon, e anong oras n,, nkktamad n puro about final destination ung mga nkbukas n window d2 s monitor,,anu n nmn expect q, wla nmng nag-oOL ng gn2ng tym.. hmmm.. cge enjoy n lng keio d2 s film,, gtg!
fd3 2nd part - not full vid,, duhhh! inicip q den n in-embed q n lng dba pra wla n lng link,, pro gs2 q link e.. hehehe.. try watching it in dark room,, hahaha, enjoy the nailgun scene,,eeeyucckk,, enjoy!
6:32 PM
here is a story i read.. it's really sad but worth the read..
18.4.06
Here's a story I read about a girl which has a feeling about her guy friend and been wanting to say the hardest thing to him... It's really sad but worth the read...
It all started when I [a girl] was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on our farm, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kind of thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home; I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him.
After graduation he got a job, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. It’s a big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him.
Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: “meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things”. I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about his entire problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him.
When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another.
How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, today I will tell her I love her; it was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.
If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all...
12:33 PM
bad day
27.4.06
Where is the moment we needed the most, you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost. They tell me your blue skies fade to grey, they tell me your passion's gone away. And I don't need no carryin' on, you stand in the line just to hit a new low. You're faking a smile with the coffee you go, you tell me your life's been way off line. You're falling to pieces everytime, and I don't need no carryin' on.
Sometimes the system goes on the brink, and the whole thing turns out wrong. You might not make it back and you know, that you could be well oh that strong and I'm not wrong. So where is the passion when you need it the most, oh you and I, you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.
'cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it around. You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie, you work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day, you've seen what you like and how does it feel for one more time...
**happy birthday ma!!!
**hmm, wla aqng mapost ngaun e.. kya ni-repost q na lng yang 'bad day' na nsa first blog q... hmm, i guess that's what i'm feeling right now...tnX!
Time freezed at 6:14 PM
hmm..
25.4.06
i guess gs2 nio nmn ng iba, instead of my everyday-whatevers.. so cguro ikkwen2 q na lng ung previous integrated project ng buong sophomores [that's us] last school year.. this happens nun 4th qtr na.. great idea dba para hndi nmn mtapos ung skul year w/ just simple goodbyes.. at least unity-memories..hehehe.. i'll treasure this memories, promise!.. d2 q lng nkita ung unity ng buong rinaldi [2nd year - my section... ahem, best section]..
[sTagE pLaY]
so, ung project na un is a STAGE PLAY.. ung project na un, sakop na ung halos lahat ng subjects... like for the values, that's Values Education, for the dance/choreography that's S.K.F., for props that's Mechanical Technology and so on and so forth..
bale, pinabunot kme ng country.. ang nkuha nmen is india..ac2ally, i am the assnt. director at first, pro hndi q rin nmn gs2, kya ung scriptwriter nmen w/c is david [our class pres.], ang pumalit sken, kac den,, hndi pwede ksama sa castings ang isang production staff.. e gs2 qng maging dancer... so aun...
we worked so hard for this, every saturday, we meet at the classroom to work for props, and the delivery of messages.. dancer aq pro aq ung nagdrawing nung dancing shiva [the goddess of dances - india] props nmen... hehehe, ngaun lng nila nlaman na mgling den aqng magdrawing...ahemm!!.. kya ngulat den cla.. hndi q ren plinano [plano] na aq ung magddrawing, bsta ung head ng props nmen, tnnong aq kung pno ba idrawing e2ng c dancing shiva... hehehe. yeah!
the big-day is fast approaching, and we already have our costumes from the mananahi.. guess what the costumes for the dancers alone costs P800+ [i forgot..] hndi na magttaka kac ung costumes ng mga dancers is 3, kac 3 production numbers nun..ung
{1}temple dance, {2}market dance, {3}then ung nightmare and relics dance..<-[isa lng yang prod. pro hati sa dlawa]..
we did it!, i mean we performed well.. i guess they loved it.. then after the presentations, later that afternoon is the awardings ..hmm,, okay...well we're bit disappointed about the results, we only got the 'best preview award' w/c is isang tao lng ung nagpakahirap, kac cya lng ung mgaling sa mga gnun...huh! uu un lng ang nkuha nmen.. *sigh*.. ang mrming nkkuhang awards are the japan and vietnam.. hmm.. i feel sad about our 2 choreographers,, kac lhat nag-eexpect na khit hndi tau mnalo ng best actors.. etc. is mkuha ntin ung best choreography, like prng mind-set na xure win na un,,even the other sections says that we will get that award..like, "tama na practice!, kau na panalo jan",, hmm pro hndi ren..
ok lng yan...what's important to me is nkapag-perform kme ng maayos sa stage w/o
mistakes... so aun.. it was a great-great experience, for me sna magkaroon ulit n2 nxt yir and nxt-nxt yir.. hay! kac tlgng d2 q nkita ung lhat ng things na hndi q nkkta s classm8s q, like the unity and cooperation,, hndi q yan nkta sa buong classroom, i guess.. kac kme ung blacksheep ng sophomores..[*sigh* blacksheep den ung section q dti e..] yes!, like maiingay, bwiset na bwiset na ung mga teachers smen..hmm.. pro this is the best section ever!!!
Time freezed at 4:32 PM
ow shit! boring na, hot pa..
24.4.06
*khapon po ito*
hmm, i woke up earlier than i expected [usually mga 9:30am], pro it's 8:30 pa lng, how do i know? i didn't even look at the clock..hmm, kac nrrinig q ung tv sa room ng sisters q, yes rinig. and nagstart pa lng ung show n pumalit sa madeline,, hehehe, so that's 8:30..
**i stopped kac, i forgot skitz - our dog nsa bathroom pa, doing [err..] like pooping!!.. so pinulot q muna ung mga poop..not barehands cyempre, duhh,, that's not gonna happen... hold your breath,, huh! done... back here!!
ow, it's so early..nndyan pa nga ate jha q e,.. w/c is also on her way na ren to her summer class... so umalis na den cya..,,ac2ally kgabe, nanood pa q ng mga dvds [remember??]
so, pro hndi q na tinapos kac pagod na pagod na q dhil nga umalis kme khapon.. so my eyes are starting to shut and i'm yawning na ren.. so cguro 30 mins. pa lng ung movie pro, wla di q na kya!!.. [i watched dvd after the pbb teen edition, ung pinakilala na ung 12-teen new housemates, pro still b4 i watch dvds, e, nnood muna aq nun sa 24/7-pbb, ac2ally we don't subscribe, pro 'meron na wla' nung una i was excited kac, maayos.. pro when it's starting the live streaming, maya-maya gumulo na nmn like it used to..*sigh* kla q wla ng subscirbe-subscribe..hmm..(about s 'meron na wala', it's ac2ally, rinig-na-rinig mo ung usapan, pro maugong ung itchura..pro minsan, kita mo ung maayos na form..pro maugong pa ren..aun)]
when i came out from my room, nkita q ung mm q nagmamadali..hmm, enrollment na pla s DonBoscoTechnicalCollege <-- [school q] ngaun [uu nga pla].. hmm, ang aga nga e, usually may-june pa dba.. hay, ewan, gnun tlga s DBTC..
**this is one **i* hour, grabe!! bglng dumating ung kuya q, unexpected [kac usually dumadating cya d2 sa haus mga 8pm na kac nga sa work nya] aun,, aba binantayan ung room nya [where nnd2 e2ng comp]ac2ally e2ng PC is sming dalawa ung isa png PC sa dlwang q nmn sisters, pro mron din aq dun accnt] aun, tlgang hndi cya umalis d2 a room nya... well this happen ngaun lng [ngaung nag-popost aq].. knna 4:31pm lng, ngaun 5:54pm na.. grabe, kya gnwa q na lng nag-emu aq..shiish..
back here!!
so nnood pa aq ulit ng dvds ac2ally ung hndi q natapos kgabe ung pinanood q..
nun dumating na ung mom q gling sa skul kac sa enrollment.. shiish,, 3-versiglia section q for this skul year... *sigh*, i'm expecting 3-zatti e,, hmm..
then late that evening, i watched dvds as usual, pinanood q 'rumor has it', gnda nung movie.. ntpos ung movie 12:17am [bale tuesday na]... so aun..
**medjo magulo ung post q noh?? kac cnama q ung mga nangyyare sa pligid q habang nagpopost... so aun.. tnx!! ung mga nagyyare sa pligid q is ung nsa [ung may dlawang **] don't worry hndi q na issama ung mga nagyyare while i'm doing some posts.. [it wasn't a great idea, hehehe].. tnx!!
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sa sm manila
23.4.06
umm.. nn-naginip pa q nang bglang may ngsalita, mom q pla. "jeff, gicng na, ngaun umaga na lng tau aalis" [we planned 12 noon] kc ssama daw c ate jha. pro hndi uuwi ng gabing-gabi kac mag-aaral p cya for 2m. so aun, nag prepare na q. ngdala aq ng pera kac plano q bbli aq ng body bag and a polo shirt at penshoppe.
b4 we went exactly at sm, [SM manila BTW] we went to quiapo first to attend mass. then off to sm manila. we're going to watch cinema!! weee.. hehehe.
*d lucky ones*
the movie is cool and funny. msayang pnoorin, eventhough pcira c sandara [not actually]. pro the fact is ang gling nla pokwang and eugene..nver miss that muvi!! hehehe..it's just like exactly ung 'tanging ina muvi".. sbhin nio ng ang babaw q. maybe b'cause ngaun n lng uli aq nkapuntang cinema house.. [may epekto pla un, hmm..jowk lng!] *see sunday morning post q
- yan ung last tyme nming pmnta s cinema house, hahaha!.
*nkita ku ang nkita ku*
u heard it ryt! 2 pnnood nmen,, hmm... cguro alam nio kung anung muvi yan... "pamahiin"..hahaha. at first cyempre hndi mo mxdo maintindhn ung movie, b'cause of the twist sa may last part ng movie.. mgnda ung movie, pro nkkkuha ng pncin ung effects, kung nrinig/npanood nio na sa tv ung mga comments ng mga nkanood na ng muvi nung premiere night, ung effects daw pang hollywood??, it wasn't, para sken, png so cartoon, ung nabagsakan c [nkalimutan q na] ng tic-toc clock ung mataas, i dunno tawag dun.. prng cartoon, promise!.. pro the fact is ang gling umarte ni iya villania, promise!. don't miss that muvi!
after the show, we plan to buy some dvd [yes, pirated. wahahha][pirated? so what!] s quiapo...
*2 'lil s2pid*
hmm, after buying dvd's, now it's tyme to go home [awwww!!!] sa jeep, sa tpat nmen, may 2 'lil girls with their mom... hmmm. on our way home, i notice the 2 girls [not at the same age, pro they're sisters].. the older one carried her 'lil sister on her lap, pra mka-upo ung ibang psahero.. then minutes have passed, i notice once again the 2 girls, the older one, is murmuring on her 'lil sisters ear, and they suddenly looked at me, then start 'LAUGHING' [not actually loud] but i can see they're trying to pissed me off, after that. i get conscious about myself, *about my hair, the wax had started welling off since we've got to attend the mass at quiapo, but i did'nt mind it* is it?, or my face?... ha! i don't care!.. then i try to put my vision away from them, then i notice once again, they'd stopped.. hmmm, what the matter??.. when they saw me looking at them, they start murmuring again then they laugh again.. what's the matter w/ u 2 'lil *r**k* **t*h**!!.. [i didn't say it to them, don't worry, why would i shout at them??]... malapit na kme s bbbaan nmen, bmba kme to buy some food, wla kcng pagkain s bahay... hay slamat!!.. [it's not a big deal after all, gs2 q lng i-share i2]..
*more*
dun sa bnibilhan nmen, may group of barks [barkadas], while waiting for our mom to ordering, i notice they're laughing too,,,[WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH THE PEOPLE!! IS IT A "LAUGH-AT-JEFF-AT-6-PM day??] actually, i guess they're not laughing at me... hmmm..
so aun... have u noticed na hndi q minensyon [mention] ung mga bnili q [w/c i planned] remember?? the body-bag?? the polo shirt??.. well i we have no tyme buying even one of them after-all, kac nga mag-aaral pa ung ate jha q,, maybe next tyme.. that's all for my out-of-house happenings...Ü
npncin nio rin bang ang aga q nag-post, kc ngaun na uuwi ung kuya q, maybe hours later, nnd2 na un.. kya inagahan q na bago mag 'bukas' <--[tomorrow], bka mkalimutan q p ung mga nga nngyare [??]...
that's it!! advance gudnyt sa iñu!! tnx for reading ang tnx in advance n rin kung magsa-sign kau sa guestbook q [pls, pls!!] or tag [pls!]
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xo hot!!
22.4.06
hmm, gwabe na init!!.. xobra!. umm, and aga2 pa pro my dad and mom, and my sister is already asleep.. nyek! 9 pm pa lng,, well cguro dhil n den s pagod kc mom q medyo minake-over ang room ng kuya q w/c is nsa iloilo [ata] hnggng ngaun pro uuwi n 2morrow eve. dad q, office works xempre. sister q, gling s summer class. and my eldest sister, pmntang subic, knna lng umalis...
hmm, sa xobrang init, d2 sa kama ng kuya q n2log ung mom and dad q kc presko, kung saan nnd2 ung PC, kya mdjo hndi aq mka soundtrippin', hwaaa!. umm, presko nga nmn. mhirap na den mag aircon these days lalo na gastos..
hmm, guess huwat!, ngaun oras ding e2, sinuway aq ng mom q kc ncclaw ata cla, kac hndi cla sanay m2log pag bukas un ilaw, hmm, lhat nmn ata tau, e?!..heheh, naku nmn, hndi lng kac nila alam n mnsan e hnggang alas-12 ng htingg-gabi e gmit q 2m PC, kung wla yung kuya q... haiz!..
nku nmn!, bad saturday-eve ata ang naamuy q! i guess bbwi na lng aq bukas unless gabing-gabi n umuwi kuya q.. *sigh*.. bket kac d2 p keio n2log.. :P, jowk!
hmm, i guess may connection nmn ung title q sa mga cnulat q, eventhough ngmamadli na qng mag-type, kac bka mgcing na nmn cla pra suwayin naq at ptulugin n..lalo n ang ingay p nmn n2ng keyboard..hmm,, hndi n ata aq snay m2log ng gni2ng oras, dhil na den s everyday routine.. cge tnx for reading this... i guess mnonood na lng uleht aq ng mga dvds s room q.. hirap nang wlng PC s sriling room!! grrr. cge! nyt!!!
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freaky daw o??
19.4.06
hehehe,, freeeaaaaky.. pmunta aq s youtube.com to watch the fox's 'the o.c.' ya know that? ryan? marissa?.. nevermind.. then after i watch some series. i ended up searching for final destination 3.. wla lng, kc malay mo mrong full vid nun d2,, and hndi q p nmn nppnood un..one time dpat mppnood q n un w/ friends s house nya,, e wla lng.. bbli din sna aq ng dvd nun.. e aun... inisip q den kung ppnoorin q un.. edi wla ng thrill kung nkbli n ng dvd nun.. aun,, nkkta q ung mga gruesome and brutal n pgkkmatay nun mga characters, kdiri ung nailgun scene, waaaa.. it's fun 2 watch,, iba tlga feeling, nkatutok k s comp, then watching people die brutally s monitor in a dark room pa.. waaa... cool! waaa, goosebumps..
nothing to watch s tv, as usual. tmang-tma umalis ung kuya q, although he planned not to come for work today, pmnta nmn xa s mall. as usual nag comp n nmn aq. well, i've been here since afternoon, e anong oras n,, nkktamad n puro about final destination ung mga nkbukas n window d2 s monitor,,anu n nmn expect q, wla nmng nag-oOL ng gn2ng tym.. hmmm.. cge enjoy n lng keio d2 s film,, gtg!
fd3 2nd part - not full vid,, duhhh! inicip q den n in-embed q n lng dba pra wla n lng link,, pro gs2 q link e.. hehehe.. try watching it in dark room,, hahaha, enjoy the nailgun scene,,eeeyucckk,, enjoy!
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here is a story i read.. it's really sad but worth the read..
18.4.06
Here's a story I read about a girl which has a feeling about her guy friend and been wanting to say the hardest thing to him... It's really sad but worth the read...
It all started when I [a girl] was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on our farm, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kind of thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home; I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him.
After graduation he got a job, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. It’s a big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him.
Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: “meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things”. I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about his entire problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him.
When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another.
How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, today I will tell her I love her; it was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.
If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all...
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MyIdentity
sup! hey there bloggers! well. welcome to my blog. got new layout. lol! so. again. you stumbled upon my stupid-ness. welcome! lol! i got nothing to say anyway. enjoy. and don't forget to leave comments on my taggy board
my name is jefferson m. ong. im 16 yrs old. i was born on january 27, 1991. i can probably say im a poser. haha! cuz sometimes im emo. half-blood bosconian. lol! well that's cuz i was transfered to dbtc. lol! senior student. and a versiglian. we rock! lol!
im quite friendly. kind. shy-type. i mean super shy. a bit anti-social. lol! moody most of the time. im a loner too. sometimes it leads to wierdom-ness. i sometimes lack confidence. been called geek cuz i read a lot.
im fond of reading books. young-adults and fictional to be exact. music is my life - cant live without 'em. browsing the internet. making friends. being with friends. i personally hate school. but sometimes love it. i prefer staying at home rather than going out. but easily getting bored.
i love dancing. im a member of our school's dance troupe. i can say im also into theatre. lol! Quadro-Quadrado was my first apperance on a stage play. i love eating. my favorites are tortillas. corn. popcorn. baked potatoes. ice cream. dark chocolates. chips and dips. fries. and many more. i love watching movies. usually romantic. a little horror. and comedy.
