yey!!hapi nu yr na!!! mwahhh..im leaving ol of this shits behind..welcome 08!!!! may i have the real perfect new yir.. : .. <:-)!!!


nomo.nomo!! :P


exctly 20 mins bfore 2008!! luvs u!!

hai, 2 days.. T_T.. grabe..


nqta mo stat cu.. (19..my.heart~) tnung mo kung anu ngyre xa heart co? haha.. xgut co 'la nmn'.. pro ac2lly.. stu co xbhin 'u broke it'..haha
it'z xo hard na ur asking 4 friendship and di mbigay.. xbrang hirap.. yaw ka itxt xmntlng dati textm8s kau, e ngaun prng di ka na nia kilala.. tpoz di pa bmblik impression nia.. xobra hirap.. lauan mo na kac acu.. iniz nmn to, di mo nmn aco kelangan dmee mong friends jan o.. wag mo na ku pncinin plsz.. bsta. ang xaya-xaya co na ee dba..? r we friends? xe di mo man lng aco iaccept as ur txtm8.. nwei, lauan mo na po co.. plss.. icipin mo nmn aco, stu co din xumaya no.. !

stung-stu co na grumaduate, xe stu ko nmn na xumaya khit kontee o.. xrap umiyak.. favorite hobby co na un.. haha..


~cuz ur my guardian angel~
~cuz ur my hero~
~cuz ur my heart~
~19~

im okei na.. yey! lab being problem-free.. hai..


mga patama title nu?? nwei yaw co na ng away pro cla nangunguna, now i've changed na palaban na cu..whooo!

~~hui.. tagal move on aa.. haha,, i h8 d fact na tagal mo magmove on, tas .. bsta!! harhar.. nyahaha.. mga stat mu minxan kainiz.. pinagkkwen2han nio pa cu.. nwei.. u want it? u'll have it.. haha..palaban.. :*

~~en ikaw! haha im still doubting.. bleh. ur being a gud frend agen, pro lhat ng nafi-feel co nagging 22o.. ayt? nwei.xori

~~hai buti pa ikaw, we're ok na.. tnx xo much at bumalik kgad impression mo.. xori tlga about xa recoletter.. (oops, mei clue??ngek.. vain cu)

~~hai, i dun expect na. u dun want frendz itz aryt.. :)

~~my.heart/eww.

~~lala, cancelled sundance..kkainis, sayang 15k nmen..

~~grabe lakaz pang amuy co no? haha..i dunno pro lam co dapat yaw ko muna mtpoz year na tu..pro stu co na grumaduate.. nhhirapan aco.. haha

hai. xoo hirap.. :p

bilis change of mood aa. di acu nmmncin? e kax di ka rin nmn po nmmncin.. pff. hirap pretend aa.. di cu kaya.. ainku, ''if loving u is lyk breathing.. tell me, how can i stop??'' imissu

*i****** ** ***s *o**e****t.. :p


di daw mgglet, pngtwanan nmn.. hihi.
kung cnu stu mk-alam nung post co PM me n lng,, yoko na ito ipublic..


(hai.. nagging close lng ba tlga ang kada dhil xa ktarantaduhan everyday..??)


psstt!! ung ktxt co, cge lng batu mo xken lhat..aizz, to tell u, abwt xa back-ups... realization un, uo tnanggap nga aco,, pro 22o ba keia un? realization un.. 5 or 6 ba kamo..?? hai feel co 2-3 n lng.. xorriii aa bka gnun lng tlga aco!.. kaya nga friendship dba.. XANA TNTNGGAP N LNG KUNG CNU ACO... aw cgee lng. feel co ngaun, xa 22o lng imohxoalone.. kung friends man yan or family.. pxenxa aa.. bka mali lng pag approach co xa bgay2!..



ohmigosh, xa 22o lng.. wutss hppenin to me.. ? :c

haiiz.. i dun wanna be xo emotional na, everyday i was challenged emotionally and im getting tired na.. it's like everyday mas lalo aco naccra.. hanggng ngaun i dunno kung ano ngwa co keia nangyyre xken lhat ng to..

i've been posting this over ang over again.. sigh..


19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19

it all started after i tried breaking free, that time i thought THAT was the right time to be me.. i always hear something from them (kada) na ''ur myterious kac kaya no one understands you and no one reaches out.. kac prang in ur condition, u should be the one reaching out..'' then i freed myself.. but then i dunno that i approached things that way, i hurt so many feelings..

im insane, im paranoid, im miserable, and it's like i wish to go back from my shell na lng.. :-/

(and so on..)

..i just dunno if the kada i have right now are true to me.. i mean, i just knew that a gradeschool friendship is still thicker than a highschool friendship.. i dunno if their advices are really gonna help me or just because / so that his friend would not feel bad.. sigh.. get that?

basta feel ko out of, almost 15 of them.. i only got 5 or 6.. even ung mga ngging ka-close co na, feel co at the back of their minds, e plastikan p rin.. sigh, kung alam nio lng naf-feel co.. to the point na, pagnkqta aco ng knife i can end my life na.. gnun na ang level.. :(

i know na problems are just obstacles in our everydays.. and that we could just passed them by or solve 'em in no effort.. but then in my case, there are never ending problems.. i mean, i just got one, then another one, then another.. lam mo un? prng ''anu ba isa-isa lng!!'' ..and im tired na..

nadagdag pa to.. started after you walked into my life, i'll never regret it, and i dun blame you at all.. prang lhat ng to ngyyre after i met you.. (bulleted)

*i dun know kung cnu ung nagkalat na i was scribing something on my skin, ur name. and that nlman pa ni fadz, even our adviser.. or better almost whole faculty..
*then the secret na i know na xxbhin co nmn kei 02 and c05. kei tate mo pa unang cnbi, kya nlman ng iba..
*then the fact na i tried not to make pancin of you, then u BEG na di co gawin. cuz it wont do any good, then i stopped pro wut u doin,, it's like (uggh) ..
*and also the thing about him, i dun want to be selfish. I JUST WANTED TO BE LOVED.. that's why..
*with him, ya, i should not be acting like this towards you, all i wanted to say deep in my heart na ***************. then i knew about ur post, na ngxxbe about i**s**.. (hihi), na nagkuxap pla kau and that 19 is not telling me the truth..


OHGENERALIZED
i could generalized now.. i don't have back-ups.. why? cuz no one has their own sides. i know it's bad pero, whenever i see smthing like that prng im ALONe, i dunno kung 22o cla xken.. kya prng pag mei nka-away aco, lhat xa side nia kac nga nmn CHILDHOOD FRIEND/GRADESCHOOL FRIEND.. and wula aco binatbat kx 4-yir friend lng aco.. im not angry, im just stating my side..

lhat nagssecrets, kac im myterious.. i freed, then mdming nxktan.. i dunno if the kada i have are true or what.


19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19.19





i can't think na, i know this post is confusing pro sna u and u got my points.. all i can say is that I DUN WANT TO BE SELFISH..pro i just wanted to be loved.. :(

haii.. life is so miserable.. always causing me trouble and failures.. i sometimes feel that MY life is so unfair, living like this is something i can't stand.. and i might not be have the right to be happy.. and that i feel like i should not be living pa.. haii.. somebody please end my life..


it all started when i met you.. don't ever think that i blame you in all this things,, actually i become a better person just after you walked into my life, im so grateful,, maybe it's just that i approached things differently and without knowlegde..


as i find love in you, i started to be like crazy and not on my own self and i started to feel my importance to people. by you, i broke free to my .. but then i become obsessed,, i scribed your name to my hand, and further causes me trouble..


and for that, i love you xo much..

falling in love has never easy for me, even facing the truth as i've learned. trying to be myself or better trying to fit in is regretful. i never thought i faced things this way - only makes me feel pathetic, putting myself down and pessimistic, hurting 2 real friends.. oh, never easy..

now i'm not putting an end to this lil dream of mine, but i'll keep it and not throw it away. and i hope things will be brought back to normal.

dancing lalala..

sigh*

em sick again!! and im feeling half alive

im have a feeling that i am living in a life support.. T_T it seems i always got sick and the medicines are just making me feel well and not healing me. enough said. :'(. im emo.

heroes.. ;]

i possessed powers!! yeah! lols. wanna know what it is? I CAN CONTROL MY LUCK. and i mean it. i dont know if i should share this one because there's this so called 'wag mong batiin baka maudlot' you get that? anyways. and everytime that im gonna have a bad luck. mr.destiny strikes me on my weakest spot like 'when i feel like im wasting my mom's money' something like that.

trinoma madness..

last sunday. we went to trinoma - the new mall just beside SM north. and it's big, i love it. and we dont have to take buses to get there. lols. just one MRT ride away. it'll take you straight at trinoma.

we headed to the cinema, and AGAIN all of the people of the philippines are buying their tickets for transformers. haha! we, too bought tickets. the theatre is cute. it's different from an ordinary theatre. the movie is cool, it'll quite make you dizzy, because most of the scenes you can see was effects of vehicles transforming.
it seems that movies today are really great. haha!. it's just me saying that transformers is 2 thumbs up!

meanwhile, when the movie is about to start im feeling that my luck is not going my way. here's the story goes...

i had 2 colas that mom bought. hehe! plenty finger foods. yum! mom place the one cola on the floor between our seats while the other one was there on the place where sodas should be placed. haha! i dunno what's it called. then mom said that maybe i should drink first the other one. so i took it, then she gave me foods, so i kind of let go of the soda. then i ate a little. when i was about to grope the soda, 'i was like, where the hell is it??' then i found out that it was already spilled and making some mess up to the strangers sanctuary. haha! so i feel like i just wasted moms money. :( weakness. and we called for a janitor and he cleaned it up.



i ran out of words. bye bye! til next ime. :*

this need to be quick! haha!

today? we gone to megamall. exactly at kodak. cuz i needed to have my picture taken (haha! was it right??) for the application forms for college. after that we went to cinema and watched FANTASTIC 4 : RISE OF THE SILVER SURFER!!! it's the best ever!!

it's the second best movie (spiderman 3 - bestest) i've ever watched! damn must see!!

after that we went to bench and bought stuffs. then mom played lotto while i bought plenty of books at booksale!! haha! it's so cheap only Php40.00.. hehehe. i bought (3) of them. then at national bookstore for some school supplies again. cuz it is required. then at the department store and bought stuffs too. after a long walking and buying of stuffs, we headed to starmall to buy foods then went home.

(this mall-day wasn't actually happened fast. as you may see because i am in a hurry typing. i would like to detailed every actions. haha!)

there yah gow! hey! watch fantastic 4 ok?? it's good!!